It was that dreaded statement from the backseat from my 3 year old daughter….. “Mommy I have to go POTTY NOW!!!” I looked around and we were nowhere near a place to pull over. We live in the country and of course in the middle of nowhere for at least 5 minutes. Tears started streaming from my perfectionist daughter who NEVER wants to have an accident. I told her there was nowhere to pull over but she would make it. She said “Are you going as fast as you can?” to which I answered, “No, but I am going as fast as I should.” (After this exchange we had a conversation about police and speeding in preschool lingo!)
As we got into town and I was absolutely relieved to see the Walmart sign we had to stop at the only stoplight preventing us from getting to the bathroom any quicker. While at the stop sign I began to think about God and His plan…..(I love when that still, small voice begins to talk at the strangest of locations)
How many times do we just want to get there as fast as we can? In the middle of the night when we are pacing incessantly with a screaming infant we want to fast forward to the stage where they sleep through the night (and so do we). When your toddler throws them self down in the middle of Kroger because you aren’t getting them Oreos…. we want to skip ahead to the age where we can rationalize with them and talk through why they aren’t getting their way (or at least skip to the end of the tantrum so we are not the center of attention of all of the eyes in the store). When we are driving carpool for the 5th time today to a variety of activities for the kids…..we want to skip ahead to the high school years when they are more self-sufficient and can drive themselves to their own activities.
Perhaps it’s not about going fast with the kids… perhaps we want to fast forward ahead to when the mortgage is paid off, when we can travel with our spouse, or when we can slow down and just have “us” time again! Maybe we just can’t wait until the day we can retire from our job…. and the list goes on and on of what we may want to fast forward to or at least get to faster than the pace we are going at now.
But God has a plan for us. He paces us according to what He knows we can handle as well as pacing us so we can learn from Him along the way. He doesn’t always make it easy to want to remain in the present. But He does want us to lean on Him and trust Him in everything. “Trust in the A)” style=”box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;”> with all your heart <span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-16461A" data-link="(and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths<span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-16462B" data-link="(B)” style=”background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;”> straight. ~
“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for<span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-30174A" data-link="(A)” style=”box-sizing: border-box; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;”> and assurance about what we do not see.” ~
Boy does that hit home for me!! Recently I have begun to pray that I will remove myself from God’s place and trust that He has it all under control. As a control freak that is extremely hard for me. But it is something that God and I are working on and He is growing in me! I challenge you to look at your heart’s desires for the journey before you. Are there areas in your life you are trying to fast forward? Or will you move at God’s pace?
“For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him” (Psalm 62:5)
*Note: Lucy made it to the bathroom and was happy that she could maintain her record!